What is happiness? Some define happiness as having everything you could possibly want in life. A new car, a new home, and lots of possessions. Others say love is enough for them and that money cannot buy happiness.
Right now, in my life, I want to find out what would make me happy. I have had the material things and it is nice but objects cannot make you happy. You could have all the fun stuff in the world and I feel if you have nobody to enjoy the items with what is the sense is having them.
I guess that is what happiness is to me. To love and be loved. Many times I have watched a movie where two people fall in love and even if bad things happen they are together.
My wish is to have someone who loves me for me. Maybe that is the cure for my depression. I just want someone who looks forward to talking to me and wants to do things. Even if it is just taking a walk. I just want the little things, the simple things in life. My dream is to get lost in a hug. I want the little butterflies in my stomach when I see this person and I want my heart to race. True love is a cure all. But where do you find it? Personally, I believe that is a question everyone who has not found true love looks for.
I feel so lost right now. What am I supposed to do? I deal with this depression everyday and it is hard to want to do anything. Who is going to want someone who is severely depressed? I do not believe anyone will. It is hard to feel this way.
Currently I am in a situation where I do not know how I feel about anything or anyone. I know I love my sons. My husband and I seem to have lost the spark. We have drifted apart over the years and it seems hard to get the spark back. I have been hurt by a lot of things and many people but I still try to be the best person I can be. I am just lost and do not know what I want anymore.