I suffer from Bipolar depression. Mental illness is misunderstood and I deal with the stigma of that everyday.
Bipolar depression is very hard to deal with. Occasionally I will have a high period but the majority of the time I feel very low. It can affects my daily living because there are times where I have to force myself to get out of bed. It is hard to describe how low a person can feel without actually experiencing it. The smallest little issue that comes up can often feel like a catastrophe. I also suffer from severe anxiety which does not help when I am feeling incredibly low and I feel like nothing goes right. The anxiety just feeds into the depression and most times I just feel worse.
I do all I can to feel better. I follow my doctors orders and take medicine as prescribed. I feel as though medicine does not always help. I find different ways to cope with several skills I have learned. It is often difficult and hard to do when I am feeling so low.
I also suffer from Fibromyalgia. The best way I know to describe fibromyalgia is that my whole body feels bruised and then I feel like I have been run over with a truck. Having the fibromyalgia and bipolar depression make it hard to get things done. I manage to do what I can though because I will not let either of them beat me. I will admit somedays I have a better outlook than other days. Somedays I feel like I let it win, but I try not to.
I will do my best to share my experiences and ways I cope with these disorders. I want to be able to help others with similar situations. I want others to feel they are not alone.